Punishment

Punishment and Denial are interesting things. Mrs A loves to deny me by denying herself orgasms delivered by me. She sometimes pleases herself in front of me. That is my biggest frustration and makes me struggle emotionally.

She knows that I love to please her. She rarely asks me to do chores. I would say maybe one a week. Typically it is a simple one.  I do them willingly and she knows I find great reward in that. I have taken on most of the cooking recently. The kitchen has become my domain not hers as it use to be. She likes that this has happened. She likes to call when I am work and ask what I like to cook her that evening.

She has whipped me at times. But it is more for her enjoyment than punishment. It is interesting how she chooses her path of ownership and leadership. I love her leading. I love worshiping her. But it is clearly different that the stereotypical things you read in blogs.

That brings me to another interesting thought. I find myself drawn to empowered women. The ones who have learned their feminine strength and use it wisely. The ones that are not hiding weakness or insecurities behind fake strength do not draw my submissive but pulls on my dominate side.  I love the ones who love themselves and know the strength they have inside. Mrs A is that. I know I am someone who can only submit to Mrs A. But I wonder? Am I naturally submissive to women. Would I also submit to another strong woman like Mrs A? I wonder if I would submit to a strong confident alpha male?

The idea of a strong man in our relationship intrigues me, specially a Bi sexual one. Things to think on... hmmmm  I hope all is well with everyone.