Tasty.

I like when it goes from a little pain to a lot of pleasure. I love Mrs A taking me. But I can not pass up a real cock when given the opportunity.
It is just hard to find a consistent bi male dominant lover. hmmmmm

Life

Life has been way busy.
It is amazing how just getting the things done that is pushed upon you from the outside world takes up all you time.
Mrs A time has been taking up with charity boards and her work. It is a busy time for her.
I still get her coffee each morning. We fall in bed late and tired at night.

I do see that the old routine returns to some degree. It is natural that Mrs A is head of our house. She still does that as natural as breathing. The femdom stuff does suffer.

I hope all is well.

Troy

Right after I posted this I received this text;

"It seems so wrong to be so close and so far away."

It is a simple statement. Mrs A outside on the deck. I in my room. I knew I was being summoned.

Then in front of the family, Mrs A said "Dad is on kitchen duty after dinner. You need to get it done before running off."

hmmmm

Punishment

Punishment and Denial are interesting things. Mrs A loves to deny me by denying herself orgasms delivered by me. She sometimes pleases herself in front of me. That is my biggest frustration and makes me struggle emotionally.

She knows that I love to please her. She rarely asks me to do chores. I would say maybe one a week. Typically it is a simple one.  I do them willingly and she knows I find great reward in that. I have taken on most of the cooking recently. The kitchen has become my domain not hers as it use to be. She likes that this has happened. She likes to call when I am work and ask what I like to cook her that evening.

She has whipped me at times. But it is more for her enjoyment than punishment. It is interesting how she chooses her path of ownership and leadership. I love her leading. I love worshiping her. But it is clearly different that the stereotypical things you read in blogs.

That brings me to another interesting thought. I find myself drawn to empowered women. The ones who have learned their feminine strength and use it wisely. The ones that are not hiding weakness or insecurities behind fake strength do not draw my submissive but pulls on my dominate side.  I love the ones who love themselves and know the strength they have inside. Mrs A is that. I know I am someone who can only submit to Mrs A. But I wonder? Am I naturally submissive to women. Would I also submit to another strong woman like Mrs A? I wonder if I would submit to a strong confident alpha male?

The idea of a strong man in our relationship intrigues me, specially a Bi sexual one. Things to think on... hmmmm  I hope all is well with everyone.

Paris and the two drunk lesbians

We went out one night in Paris. Mrs A took me to specific bars that cater to a mix of sexuality. She wanted me to flirt with men and watch me from a distance. She told me I could not tell anyone that we were married. I was free to tease and play with anyone. She put me in a nice pair of yellow panties for the night and it was fun. I felt her eyes on me all night.

I had a Brazilian hit on me all night. Mrs A was watching the whole time. I could see her smiling at times. Her eyes were full of dominate delight. It was fun of me too. I felt desired and he was very bold with me. We danced and had a grand time. We even made to some. He clearly wanted more of me. I was nervous but excited. He then had to go with his friends. He said he would return but never did.

 Mrs A then introduced me to two lesbians at the bar and we visited. They invited us back to their apartment. We enjoyed dancing and listening to music. They were fun to visit with and to hear how they felt about American politics. I missed the Brazilian.

All in all it was fun for us both. Very different then our vanilla nights out. Mrs A was frustrated we did not bing her strap on. There was many nights on this trip so far she wanted to own me. It will come with us next time for sure.

We headed from Paris to Normandy then Belgium. Mrs A mentioned that our last days, which is spent in Amsterdam, She may pick out people to play with me while she watches.

The london cuckold.

We just spent 5 lovely days in London. We are on to Paris now.  Mrs A during this short visit has had aggressive sexy with 2 additional men. We spent a lovely evening out with the one I knew about. Even this one Mrs A said to me she had no plans to "mess around with him." But at the end of our night out I was asked to wait in the bar until she was done. It is a very mental game for me. I had a proper english tea in the middle of the night while I waited.
Mrs A had me up before he had left, to let me know my position. She had me say good bye and tell him that we had a lovely night with him. He even said: "Wow, you should see what you allowed me to do to your wife." it was in jest but non the less it left me very submissive. I felt emotionally fragile but was so happy Mrs A had a good time. It is all for her.
Mrs A teased me the next morning in bed as she gave me the details of her tryst.

The suddenness of being told and her leaving for her new rendezvous took me by surprise. She had warned me, in a way, about the first. But the second was dropped on me in seconds. She left me alone in the hotel room and went to see this other man. She does not even talk of him or what they did at all to me.
Two so close to each other has been hard on my head. Specially when we are far from home on a trip together to celebrate our wedding anniversary and Mrs A birthday,  But once again she is in charge and it is "all for her."